Friday, December 14, 2007

Wind


What does the wind say? What kind of thought is this I thought and immediately dismissed it. But as the week passed the thought became more persistent. What does the wind say? Again I dismissed it. WHAT DOES THE WIND SAY? The thought was determined and I allowed it.
Okay okay what does the wind say? You see I was in turmoil about a certain situation in my life and there seemed to be no place I could find the answer until I finally allowed the thought and gave it credence. Working in my studio the thought came again and with this I stopped all doing walked outside and realized how strong the wind was blowing. All the trees, grasses, flowers were bending and swaying in the relentless wind. I found this intriguing as I made my way to that special sacred spot on my property. A place where we had many sacred fires, a place where we had many drumming sessions and gatherings, a place where a bald eagle lay buried, a place down over the hill hidden from view of the house and any interruptions. This is a place of silence and of contemplation the place where I felt a strong need to be at this very moment. Arriving at my destination I circled slowly around the fire pit. The wind blew my hair and clothes in all directions as I walked around and around accepting the thought about the wind and feeling a little silly. Tears flowed and I asked my first question. What am I supposed to do about this situation I asked. I don't know exactly what I expected but I was completely caught of guard and surprised when I heard a reply. "What is it that you want?" It took some time to soul search the question and verbalise the answer. When I finally replied the response was immediate almost before I had finished and many more questions arose simultaneously. "I can only answer one question at a time" came the reply. So I reformulated the questions and again I was given the answers instantly.
Looking back upon the event I am still in awe and I realize that there are many other times that similar situations like these occurred. Some occur at a level of which I am not fully aware. Not only with the wind but with the trees and the birds and the plants. What is this I ask myself. What is that quiet voice that speaks with such assuredly and frankness and simplicity. Is there anybody out there with feedback in this regard. I ask the universe to send me a teacher to help me to understand this phenomena and further my knowledge base. Yearning to know more, waiting for a reply. Is there anybody out there?

P.S. I am currently reading a book called Rolling Thunder by Doug Boyd. It answers many of the questions I have about these occurences but it would be nice to have personal interaction with someone that has personal experience and knowledge of these things.
Dec 14/07

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